Mom and Memaw to many in need of christmas help and other help

I am a single grandma raising a grandchild. I have three grown children, thirteen grandchildren. I have managed to survive a divorce, put myself through college and obtained a job. Although I don't make alot, I help many people in what I do.

I am great at being available to help others, but am poor at helping myself. I am in need of help because although I am employed, I don't make enough to make ends meet. Currently, I am in need of a home and would greatly appreciate any help providing a Christmas to my granddaughter. She is the light of my life.

I have many grandchildren to share my love with, but this one is like my own. She actually is not a biological grandchild, but kind of an inherited one. I've managed to give her a good set of values, and she works to get good grades, is cooperative at home, and is always available to help my other grandchildren. This in itself speaks of the goodness within her.

I truly need help, feel desparate and don't know where to turn. I am not eligible for help because she is not my child although I have legal court ordered custody. I am such a disappointment to her, as I cannot provide for her. My wages go to feed her, pay for my vehicle and insurance and that is all. I need the car for work, as well as for us to sleep in. I am ashamed of how poorly I have done in life.

I am very capable of more, but just can't seem to get the breaks that many others do. I don't ask for the system to support me, but rather to find a better way to support myself and move forward in life. My goal is to write a book on my life as a foster child (BAD).

I am a great resource for helping others find help if they are in the low income bracket or have disabilities.